grantie

WOO HOO!!!! I leave Thursday for my North American Challenge! I'm really excited if you can't tell. My foot kills but hopefully I will get throught it. Sorry for not updating in a while but I've been busy.
My parents are getting a divorce. My dad is an asshole. A super failure at life. We all knew that though ;) Oh well. We will get through it.

Gotta go but I will update again after my competition. I promise!

Love Grantie ;)

Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: One Kiss From You ~ Britney

AHHHHHH! Things are pretty crazy at my house right now. My dad randomly shows up at our house and tries to take control and treats us all like shit so pretty much my summer is gunna blow if it keeps up at this rate. Oh well wut can ya do?
So I've been crazily bored so far. I've only been on vaca for 2 days and im going crazy like woah! Skating starts next week so hopefully that will make things more interesting. I get to start jumping next week again and hopefully I can just keep going and not have to take anymore time off cuz it sucks ass! Major ass! Is that possible to suck ass?? Hmmm? lol I dunno I'm just really bored. So the new diet is starting and I kinda went overbored last night. So I had breakfast at like 11 or so then I had dinner at 7ish and then like a shit load of ice cream at 830ish. Ugh I could have lived w/out the ice cream. :( Oh well. I'm going to be strong today and not give in to the ice cream temptations.
Oh yeah... I have to get like a million fillings or w/e on Friday so I'm sad! I have this one tooth and its like cracked or sumthing so it sucks again ass. And I had other cavities that I never got filled so I gotta get them done too. I'm gunna see if I can go over my coach Lindsay's house tomorrow cuz I'm bored and this summer sucks ass so far. Oh well.

Luv ya bitches. Oh yeah I have to put in a song in here for my mom its gunna take a while but I like this song anyways so wuts the difference.


Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes


Ugh I fucking hate you dad.

Current Mood: hungry
Current Music: Greatest fan of your life

So Im not in the mood for a deep explination but heres wuts going down.....

My dad cheated on my mom, they are getting a divorce, im moving, most of my school friends are assholes(no names please) and all that stuff.

Thats life

The one, the only, the sexy bitch

Grant

Current Mood: angry
Current Music: none

I cant believe it. My grandparents who ive known and trusted for so long have turned on me. I'm so lost and I dont know wut to do.... My eyes are burning with the tears ive been crying for about 2 hours now. My life is falling apart. My support system is gone. I have no one to turn to.... except my mom. Tonight I've been called the worst names in the book. My grandma.... I have loved her so long and thought the world of her and she has gone and told me im a god damn spolied son of a bitch. I'm so confused.... wut did i do wrong. I just don't get it. My parents are on the verge of a divorce, I have no support (other than my mom) and I cant skate...

My life is falling apart
Shattered into a million pieces
With no where to hide
I'm confused and lost
Full of sorrow
Pain and disbelief
Someone help me
Dear God
Please help me

Please.....

Current Mood: scared
Current Music: None just the sound of tears falling from my eyes

I know youve all been dying to hear from me.
So the Shores show was great! A good time fo sho. Then right after I hurt my foot again. So I cant triple. I went to the doctor and got an MRI. It came back pretty good. The bruise is healing but I cant triple yet. Just that my ankle is too weak for what I do so I have to work on strengthening it.
The Lincoln Park Ice Show is this week/weekend. Come watch me I am guest skater. Its downriver btw. The show times are......
Friday 7PM Saturday 1PM and 7PM Sunday 2PM

Thats all for now

Current Mood: amused
Current Music: Rachmaninoff Piano Concerto #2

Me and Kelly are going back out. We started yesterday. I'm very happy because I love her alot and I always will. :)

Its Ice Show week!!!!!!! I love the ice show! My program rox but the screwed up the music and its a kareoke version and I hate it. But w/e. I skated really really really good today!!! I landed triple sals and triples toes. The toes were sooooo good! My double axel is really screwed up right now though. I cant get the edge to go up straight so its very swingy. :( lol.

And in honor of me and my girl......


Ohh I love the way you kiss me
Baby please
Im about to loose my mind
Ohh talk to me
cuz Im beggin for you and Im down on my knees
Baby I know your the one that I need

...Baby I love you...
...You know that I need you...
...Gotta have you...
...Cant be without you...
...Baby I love you...
...You know I need you...
...Gotta have you...
...Cant be without you......................

Current Mood: calm
Current Music: Baby I love you ~ JLo

Woo hoo!!!!! I'm going to Montreal August 18-21 for my NACS. For my school friends or whoever doesnt know what that is its....... North American Challenge Skate. It's an international!!! Hells yeah! I got the Junior event no the novice one I thought I would get. So higher up babe. Maybe if I win USFSA will give me a JGP (junior grand prix).
So I'm going to the mall today so I'm pretty excited bout that.
OMG!!! I almost forgot.... I landed triple sals today!!!! Woohoo. My double axels are pretty screwy right now but as long as they are ok for the show it will be fine. I tried some single flip-triple toes but I didnt land any. I cant do double loop- double lutz cuz of my foot or else it woulda been double-triple but o well. They were semi close. But I'm sooo excited bout my jumps today. And its good cuz i have new skates even though they are messed up cuz the fricken Jackson skate company made them wrong. O well.

So I have a good song but nobody will probably like it but o well...

Fall... Sometimes I fall so fast
Well, I hit that bottom
Crash, you're all I have

Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhhh
It's as if you known me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me.....

Current Mood: happy
Current Music: Love Makes the World Go Round ~ Ashlee Simpson

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! They made my fricken skates wrong! Everythign is wrong! They are the wrong size, the wrong material, and the wrong stuff on the tounge. AHHHH! I'm gunna die! OH and since the boot is too small the blade doesnt fit on. And i have to break them in by monday because thats when the ice show week starts.... ughh!
Today I went bowling with Janiqua in between our two sessions. It was hot and I now am grantitquatitty. lol
Chins' new haircut is so fine... abercrombie modelish... my moonray of gold lol

No song today oh wait i have one......

My skates dont fit
woo hoo
Ain't that the shit
woo hoo
I need them bad
uhuh
But now im sad
uhuh
I'm gunna cry
(oh yeah)
I wanna die
(oh yeah)
I wanted them for the ice show
(ice show...)
More then you can ever know
(ever know....)
See I could pass
yeah yeah
Cuz I'll fall on my ass
(my ass....)
But I will fight
(fight... oh yeah fight)
Cuz that is right
(damn straight....)
Thats my song
(song oh yeah)
You best be singing along
(hells yeah sexy bitches)
yeah yeah yeah yeah................

(c)Grant Hochstein 2005

Current Mood: blah
Current Music: none

WOO HOO EASTER IS HERE!!!!!! Happy Easter to all of you that believe in God or are catholics or christians or w/e.
Today my brother woke us all up at 6:30 so we could see what the Easter Bunny brought us. Yes! That sucked considering i went to bed at midnight.... ahh im exhausted. I got some good candy though. And I think tomorrow since I have enough money I'm gunna go umm dye(?) for my hair so I can dye it. Mid-Dark Brown... like? I wanted blonder originally but I dont now cuz I would look better dark I think... I need your opinions folks. lol
I dont really know wut to put for a song and im too lazy to find the exact lyrics so I'm gunan just listen to the CD and put it down as I think it goes....Ahh its going to fast I'm gunna have to look them up....


Oh baby baby
how was I supposed to know
Oh baby baby
I shouldn't have let you go---

I must confess
that my loneliness
Is killing me now-
Don't you know I still believe
that you will be here
and give me a sign---
hit me baby one more time.

My loneliness
Is killing me (and I)
I must confess
I still believe (still believe)
When I'm not with you I lose my mind
give me a sign---
hit me baby one more time.

Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: Baby One More Time ~ Britney

So last night I talked to Kelly and we are getting along pretty well. Its just hard to talk sometimes because things arent the same so you cant say when you would normally say because then it becomes akward. I dont know whats going to happen yet. I'm just going to take my time with everything and hopefully it all turns out ok.
I'm getting my new skates Tuesday so I'm really really happy!!!! Woo hoo!



Notice me, take my hand
Why are we strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me

Everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you, baby

Current Mood: awake
Current Music: Everytime ~ Britney

So today I'm getting direct TV in ma room!!! Woo hoo! Then I'm off to physical therapy... god help me and then to the rink god help me more!!!! :(



you might think that i wont make it on my own
but now im

Stronger than yesterday
now its nothin' but my way
my loneliness ain't killing me no more
i...im stronger



LIke it??

Current Mood: calm
Current Music: Stronger ~ Britney Spears

Ahhhh frustrating!!!!!! Its always the same things. My foot is killing me and i hate skating right now.... actually i dont its just frustrating. So everytime I update im going to put in a song that sort of give my mood for the day or w/e and if its like girly im gunna change the words to guy words and stuff so i dont realy have alot to update on today so heres my song.....

And they say...
He's so lucky, He's a star
But he cry, cry, cries in his
lonely heart, thinking
If there's nothing missing
in my life
Then why do these tears come at
night?

Lost in an image (image),
in a dream
But no one there to
wake him up
And the world is spinning, and
he keeps on winning,

But tell me what happens when
it stops?

Current Mood: frustrated
Current Music: Lucky ~ Britney Spears

So I'm sorry to say that Kelly has officially left Shores. :( You may think im not upset but I really am. I'm like never going to see her.... like ever unless we hang out saturdays. It would be so hard to try to make a relationship work under those circumstances but when you are trying to repair one and then trying to make it work its going to take more than just luck. Im really upset over this whole thing.

It seems like my life is falling apart........
Cant skate, cant have Kelly.... have I done sumthing wrong to deserve this??

Grant

Current Mood: sad
Current Music: Everytime ~ Britney

Well...... its better than qualifying i guess. We managed to pull off 3rd in the short to move up to 5th overall and then get 3rd in the long and finish 4th overall. Well when i say we i mean Michelle. lol. If she didnt fall on the triple sal she would have gotten 3rd but o well. I wanna skate really really bad and do liek crazy numbers of triples but i cant..... :(

Grant

Current Mood: calm
Current Music: Britney

AHHHHHH! WHAT IS WRONG IM SOOOO SAD LOOK AT THIS. THESE ARE THE RESULTS AFTER QUALIFYING.... THEY TAKE THE POINTS NOT THE PLACEMENTS WITH THE NEW SYSTEM

Irina 29.77 1
Sasha 28.41 2
Miki 27.66 3
Fumie 27.19 4
Carolina26.45 5
Shizuka 25.79 6
Michelle24.99 7
Elena 24.39 8

WHAT IS WITH THAT! SHES IN 7TH!!!!!! SHES NEVER BEEN THIS LOW OTHER THAN HER FIRST TRIP TO WORLDS. All reports said she was doing so good and doing triple triples and then she has to go blow it and double the flip and sal. come on!!! ahh im sooo frustrated



Me and Kelly are getting along better now so who knows what will come of this

Grant

Current Mood: confused
Current Music: Lucky ~ Britney Spears

So today Kelly and I broke up. I cant believe it. I mean I know I was the one who did it and I know why, but I dont know why. I love her. Nobody can imagine the passion i have for her. Things havent been going well so I guess I just had to do it.

I can see why she is mad, but I cant help it. This is who I am. And I can change. I will change. Anything. I love her. If she lets me have my day tomorrow I will be the perfect boyfriend and never do anything to hurt her again.

I'm still in shock. It stings It hurts Im dying inside.

Grant

Current Mood: sad
Current Music: Love Makes the World Go Round ~ Ashlee Simpson

OMG IM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO FRUSTRATED!

Kelly is really pissy right now shes been like ignoring me and blowing me off when i tell her to call me and here are the reasons.....

1) I got into a fight with my best friend (a guy) so I was really upset and didnt want to talk to anyone.
2) I was really busy last night.
3) (this one is right from a text message) Sorry I didnt call you me and nick got into a big fight and i didnt want to talk to anyone sorry i love you.

K now that is bull. If she didnt want to talk to me then how could she text message me? And I call her all the time even when im pissy. Like the time my parents almost got a divorce and my dad didnt come home for 2 days yeah i still called her (sure in tears so that makes it worse). Im really really sick of it all and I dont know what to do. HELP ME!!!!!

Grant

Current Mood: pissed off
Current Music: Unreachable ~ Ashlee Simpson

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHh Im sick!!!! Its sooooo horrible! I wanna die! well i dont really wanna die but it was worth the drama ;) but yeah i feel like shit, the nasty green shit. I know how horrible!

I went to the physical therapist today.... hopefully im on the road to recovery!!!!

I got my pics from Nationals today. There are a few good ones.

Not much to say.

Grant

Current Mood: sick
Current Music: Love Makes the World Go Round ~ Ashlee Simpson

Hey hey hey!!! We have no school! Its an iceday!!! woot.

So today I think I pick Kelly to be my Valentine! Shes amazing and you all know it. lol. But ill take people to be my other valentines too.

Friday I skated! I got my program done by Simone. I love her she rocks. Im gunna kick ass fo sho.

Saturday I went over Kellys house. We went to see Boogyman. It wasnt toooo scary but it makes you watch your back when you hear things lol i know im cool. ;) Me Kelly Kim and Kara all hung out and it was alot of fun.

Sunday I didnt do anything at all. Just hung out. Then Chins and her friend Ally came over for sum random reason. I thought it was funny.

Today I get to skate!!!!!!

Kelly I love you soooooooooooooooooooooo much!

Current Mood: artistic
Current Music: "Stronger" - Britney Spears

What 2004 Hit Song Are You?
Pieces of Me by Ashlee Simpson

"Fall, with you I fall so fast
I can hardly catch my breath
I hope it lasts"

In 2004 you fell in love. Let's hope it lasts.



Names for certain names for things....

Penis Name ~ Anaconda....?? How original
Boobie Names ~ Bert and Ernie Too bad I dont have boobies
Porn Star Name ~ Dan Rather lmfao haha isnt he some old guy??
Stripper Name ~ Red .... like Red Forman from that 70s show??
Those are just a few


What Extreme Sport Should You Try?
You Should Try Ice Climbing

Cold, challenging, and downright scary
And there's no way the snow is breaking your fall


What Part of Thanksgiving Are You?

You Are the Stuffing

You're complicated and complex, yet all your pieces fit together.
People miss you if you're gone - but they're not sure why. <-- Soo True!



What Should Your New Year's Resolution Be?
Your New Years Resolution Should Be: Get rid of your "computer butt"

You've got more than "back" - you've got a big, fat ass.
And it's probably because you count multiple IM sessions as exercise
So, get yourself on the Hacker's Diet, stat...
And then you can stop pretending that you're a hot chick in chat rooms.

OMFG!!!! Thats soooooooo mean!!!! Ok I have a huge ass, but its nice! From today on I will go on a diet, and I wouldnt be that hot "chick" but I am dead sexy!!!!


What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?
Your Dominant Intelligence is Interpersonal Intelligence

You shine in your ability to realate to and understand others.
Good at seeing others' points of view, you get how people think and feel.
You have an uncanny ability to sense true feelings, intentions, and motivations.
A natural born leader, you are great at teaching and mediating conflict.

You would make a good counselor, salesperson, politician, or business person.

So True!


Thats about it from me! Much luv
Grant

Current Mood: calm
Current Music: A Moment Like This